Dear Diary...

Sometimes in life one tends to wonder about the people around and how they affect each other...

When I prayed hard for a miracle to happen and help me make my dreams come true, GOD answered it graciously with a good Samaritan. For that I was extremely grateful for HIM listening to this little child of HIS and looking out for me all this time.

But there are also times when I tend to wonder if asking a simple question to something that was not confirmed with a reply to be sarcastically shot down...bad???

Did I do something wrong?

Did I offend anyone?

Was I to assume that all will be done?

Was I to assume that my note was received?

Who is to blame? ME???

Does accepting assistance from someone mean that you owe them your entire life and the universal space and existence you breathe and live in??

It makes me wonder whether I should have accepted in the first place....

Deep down inside I don't really regret my decision for accepting for I would have never come this far but the small gnawing at the bottom of my gut says that sometimes some form of assistance doesn't come free without pain, suffering and sarcasm...