Turning Back Time....

Do you sometimes sit and think about turning back time? What would you do if you had the chance to turn it back and change things for the better?

I was just chatting with an ex-colleague of mine and here he brings up the subject of getting a chance to revisit the good ole times he went through before. And then he got me thinking about the things that I could do if I had the chance to rewind everything back and start from the earlier years.

Of course there are the believes that one shouldn't change the past but look forward to the future learning from previous experiences. So call making yourself a better person; taking the good experiences and throwing away the bad ones.

To me I think the most important thing to me to change would be to have my dad around again..

Yup, my dad left us quite early in life. I always thought he would be around at least until either one of us his children would give him some grandkids to play around and pamper. Dad was already planning to have a mobile food van to support the family after he and mum retired too. But all of that never materialised I'm afraid....

Dad was a diabetic since his early days, though not dependant on insulin was popping pills given by the doctor to control the sugar level in his body. During the early days, the side effects to your internal organs from the medicine that you take wasn't very detailed compared to now.

It was only later when his kidneys failed him that the doctor told him that the medicine he had been taking caused them to kaput. Well there was nothing else we the family could do but go along with peritoneal dialysis - the suitable solution to aid him in his problem.

Dad didn't suffer for long; he passed away one Saturday afternoon from a massive heart attack whilst the family was preparing to go to church. It's been a very taxing time for everyone at home... mum, brother and sister took it very badly... Though dad was the toughest and most strict between the two parents, he always had his fun side watching cartoons with us.

For sometime I always wondered why God had to take him so early and make me suffer to manage our family. I guess God wanted to test my abilities, patience and will to see if I could hold the fort and steer everyone out of the storm.

Now I tend to wonder who would give me away at my wedding.....